Give Satisfaction

I watched this with a big smile on my face, almost as big as the gigantic moth sitting on the curtain in my room right now.

It's so sweet! As Blusie would say, my blood turned to sugar dust.



The movements are so cute, as cute as can be, really. I love how they choreographed this. I love the all-pink styling and the heart stickers a couple of them are wearing on their cheeks. The styling especially suits Hyunsuk, who captured my eyes, but as ever, Yonghee captured my heart.

I've got a sore throat and sniffles, boo. It rained pretty much nonstop for a few days so it's the weather's impact. On the upside, the sun finally showed up today, so I was able to do laundry, I have plenty of warm drinks to brew. I don't feel upto following storylines, so I'm watching random YouTube videos and a good chunk of Korean variety shows instead.

Alok V. Menon's comedy special is on YouTube and it's excellent:


I've also been watching a bunch of CIX content, which is perfect for a sick day watch, whether the sickness is physical or mental or both.

Here's a series in which a fan's parent meets their child's idol. In this episode it was CIX's Hyunsuk meeting his fan's mother. His fan loves his cover dance of EXO's The Eve, and it was funny to see Hyunsuk and the fan's mother have a mutual breakdown: Hyunsuk too embarrassed to dance to The Eve given the quantity and ubiquity of body waves, and the fan's mother being too embarrassed to watch him attempt it.


And here's a vlog by a FIX, that is, a CIX fan, attending their recent concert with her fellow fan friends. She's clearly Hyunsuk biased and I'm hoping I can find similar fan vlogs by someone who is Yonghee biased (Yonghee, I adore you!). I envy her having IRL friends to fangirl over CIX with, and IRL means to see CIX live! I've set the video to start at 5:09 which is when Yonghee and Hyunsuk are demonstrating the choreo for their duet performance, the one that made me ship the hell out of them and fangirl over them, for the other two members, Seunghun and BX, to try. It's my favourite bit :) I enjoyed this vlog, although it made me wistful, like everything does these days.


My plans for the rest of Sunday include watching more CIX and k-variety content, drinking warm drinks, and napping.

Ever since watching that one Yonghee & Hyunsuk performance that made me go feral for them, I have fallen for CIX. Technically I have been a fan since their most recent comeback with Thunder, one of my favourite k-pop songs ever, but now I also have a ship and a bias (Yonghee) and a biaswrecker (Hyunsuk).



And here is the point of no return: I am watching their vlogs and having Feelings.



When they all visit the sea and a dripping Yonghee revenges himself on Hyunsuk by catching hold of his legs to flip him into the water, Hyunsuk stands up drenched, and they hug. It's the sort of hug where you can't tell whether Yonghee initiated it or Hyunsuk, but their arms around each other enclose my heart, making it squeeze with affection, assuring me of much to daydream about these two. Later, at their hotel, Yonghee plays the flute while Hyunsuk reads aloud, bits of prose that sound like poetry, and the moment passes, but the feeling doesn't. The feeling persists, like a floating bubble, when Seunghun asks Hyunsuk to pass him the book he was reading from, only to place it under his head as a pillow. Yonghee jokingly tells Hyunsuk to keep the book ready as a coaster when they make ramyeon. I love this feeling, warm and fuzzy around the edges, floaty, big enough to burst.

They're already on their six-year anniversary, so their contracts will likely expire at seven. I'm melancholy.